9.13.2013

The only thing mingling around here is my anxiety

Fridays are generally designated drinking days around these woods. But I can't even muster up a Mixer and Mingle post.

5:30 Monday morning I'll be heading back to the hospital to change into that blue printed gown. I'll lay down on the bed, with the stark white sheets, the heated blanket, and wince as they insert an IV into my arm. I'll stare up at those taunting operating room lights one more time as I drift off into an induced nap.

Hopefully I'll wake up an hour or two later sans gallbladder and no other issues. But 2013 hasnt really been the year where things go as planned.

It's not really even the surgery that has me nervous, it's the post-op and the recovery. The lung operation jaded me. I have a hard time believing there could be any worse feeling than that early morning excruciating pain I had, and then the emotional and psychological side of it.

Maybe I was a little bit crazy, maybe I still am crazy being this worried about a simple outpatient procedure. Regardless it's still someone being inside my body effing with an organ I was born with, and I think that's grounds enough to have a bit of anxiety.

Maybe if you've got some good juju lying around, throw it my way? I promise to repay the favor one day!
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8 comments:

Rebecca Jo said...

Hope you're doing ok... I think anxiety is worse then the actual surgery sometimes :(

Well, not that recovery is a walk in the park...

so sending you good thoughts of a FAST recovery

Nikki said...

Good luck girlfriend! Ill be thinking and praying for you!

Michelle W said...

ill be sending every single ounce of good juju i have your way!! show that gallbladder who's boss!

Emily said...

I seriously cannot believe you've had the luck that you have had this year. Just keep in your mind that it could be worse, right? There are many things to be thankful for this year, and You're going to make it through this easy peasy lemon squeezy!

Babygirl said...

Thinking lots of positive thoughts and sending many prayers your way!!

M said...

I had the surgery when I was 14. It's easy. The stitches will hurt a little but it's an easy recovery. When they say "walk a lot" after surgery....they mean it. You won't feel up to it but WALK!

Good luck!

Al said...

Good God, girl! This has beena rough year for you :( I have barely been reading any blogs, and logged on this morning and immediately jumped over here to find yet another hospital adventure in the works. I'll be thinking of you, lady, hang in there!! xo

Aly said...

Good luck tomorrow! Will be thinking about you! Xox